Thursday Thirteen - Mixed Emotions
Warning, my TT this week is more like a therapy for me.
1. For about a week I thought I was pregnant.
2. Found out today that I am not.
3. Secretly I think I wanted to be.
4. Though if I said my secret thoughts out loud I believe many people would say I was crazy.
5. Especially my husband.
6. It is amazing how your mind can trick you into think your pregnant. I would have sworn up and down that I was because I felt pregnant.
7. I already had HER name picked out.
8. Ella Marie (this was going to be Aaron's name until we found out we were not having a girl the second time around)
9. I think I have baby girl envy because three of my good friends recently had girls. Every one of them, and they are all about two weeks apart. I have baby girl envy.
10. It is weird how you can be sad for something that never really took place.
11. I think this is also coming from my baby turning one on Monday.
12. I can't believe my baby is turning one on Monday. I no longer have a baby anymore. That makes me sad.
13. No Mom I am not pregnant. No need to call. I am sure. Very sure. xox
Kim
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awwww... I know exactly what you are talking about! (especially that baby girl envy!)
Don't know if condolences or congrats are in order - just hope you're okay either way.
I certainly have felt that disappointment too. and yes, it is strange how you can convince yourself that you're pregnant. :) Feel better.
I have boy envy. :( I have a 2 year old girl that I'll trade for your year old boy. Call me.
I'm sorry you were disappointed. Hope you're OK.
#10-that's how I feel about my modeling career.
Been there myself once or twice. Happy TT.
I had a moment like this a few weeks ago. I had no intentions of getting pregnant. J is only nine months! YET, when the minus sign came up, I was surprisingly disappointed. How weird was that?
A bummer in a really weird way, huh?
Take care--you . . .
Awwww, even I was hoping you were having a girl when I read number one.
Hang in there! Hugs! :)
Are you sure Miss Vito...yes, I'm sure...Are you very sure Miss Vito...yes, I'm very sure...how sure are you Miss Vito...I'm 99.99% sure...
wait, do you hear it Kim...(horse's hoofing sound on porch) it's the biological time clock.ticking ..tick, tick, tick...
Kim, did this post mean that YOU HAD SEX AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!! WHAT'S A MOTHER TO DO...
I'm sorry bebe. And Congrats. 'Cause I dunno which one you wanna hear most.
xox
I'm sorry for your dissapointment Kim. I hope you're feeling OK.
But if you JUST found out your not pregnant, and you having the perfect cycle you do, I'd say you have about 11-14 days before you need to hop in the sack and make that little girl happen!!
PS- I love your Mothers comment, LOL!
Awe XOXO
I know how you feel on both levels of feeling disappointed on not being pregnant and baby girl envy. I have 2 little toddlers that are boys. I am not "supposed" to get pregnant because of health reasons, but if by some miracle I do...I would be happy!
I know this feeling all too well. I just got my period after a week of thinking I was going to have a little Liam or a little Kate. I know that having another child is totally out of the question financially, emotionally, and for a whole host of other reasons. But, I wanted to be pregnant. Sigh! I'm sorry hon.
Kim, Your mom is too cute for words. Funny!
I can relate to every aspect of this post. the thinking you are. the body reacting to your thoughts, the disappointment, the girl envy, the not having a baby anymore. the whole thing.
HUGS!!!
KEEP BELIEVING
aw. hugs. one day, you'll just have to put some 'effort' into it, eh? :)
I have plain old baby envy! I keep trying to talk you into giving me one of yours, but you just won't budge. Anyone else have a kid that they would give me?
I can relate, as can most moms we have all been there. I am sure it will happen in due time. :)
Your mom.... is funny.
((Hugs)) to you. I kinda of wanted another baby a couple of months ago when Fifi turned one. They aren't babies anymore, you know?
Aw, that's happened to me before. I always have baby envy - if I could have a dozen, I probably would!
I've been in these shoes before. I think if it's right, it will happen, and everyone will be happy!
I've been there - sad and relieved. Two feelings that are hard to reconcile with each other.
I went through the same exact thing a couple of months ago. In a matter of four days, I was not only convinced I was pregnant, but had gone from being upset to thrilled at the idea. As I read your list, I was agreeing with each point. Big hugs to you, Kim!
Aww, I'm sorry hon!! (((HUGS)))
Oh, my heart feels for you. ...And I know what you mean about your baby not being a baby anymore. My son is 5 and we just recently registered him for kindergarten starting in the fall and I was all sad about it. My hubby and I have been trying for another baby for over 3 years now, to no avail. I still get sad each month when I start my period! I always call my son my "miracle baby" since I had 2 mc's before him and 2 after him. I always hold on to hope, though!
Cheers, Deb
Oh gosh. This happened to me when Cameron was 9 months... but I didn't "secretly" want to be pregnant again... not yet anyway!
What is it with these 1-year old's making us feel like they don't need us anymore?! Ha! Cameron saw me topless the other day... and she looked at my boob and reached right for it... and laughed.. over and over. I was thinking, "These suckers used to feed you not that long ago." It was like she had no memory of it.
Hope you have a nice Memorial Day weekend!
Sorry I've been such a horrible blog friend lately... I need to get my act together!
Awww,sorry you were disappointed :(
I remember wishing for another baby when the little one turned one too. It was pretty crazy though, as we had already decided we were done (long story). We were lucky though, we have one of each, although the yearning does come every so often, especially as my baby gets older.
Kisses and smooches.
Aw! I'm sorry Kim! Maybe it will happen.
I, however, would've been equally sad had my period NOT come! I can barely handle the two kids I have now!